I have a head cold. It sucks. Summer colds are the worst you sweat and sniffle and sweat. No bueno.
The last week I've been tossing and turning unable to sleep, my mind is racing constantly and I've got pretty nutty things going on in there.
In AA we are being constantly told to turn it over to god for the answer. But of course I think I'm turning it over to god, but I turn it over the Magic 8 Ball at Baby Cakes that gives me advise as well, then I sit, dwell and drive myself slightly nutty, only it's more like, "oh, I'm nutty, ok, next" in the past nutty was seriously bat shit crazy, now it's a few nights of sleeplessness followed by spurts of wacky thoughts, then I get busy and forget about whatever I was nutty about in the first place until the next morning.
Once I get over this cold and get back to life and yoga my mind will get out of nutty.
Anyway, a bunch of answers seemed to have emerged today on various topics.
The one thing I always forget in this journey is my friend Moby gives the best advise. He has for the past several years of my life, seriously I have no idea where he was this morning when we began emailing at 5am, I really need to remember to listen to him more often. He's always right, he's a little oracle. It's like I'm the bratty child who wants a Goose that lays golden eggs and Mo is Willie Wonka telling me to stop, then turn it over and stop thinking what I want is the way. Once again he was right. So kudos to my dear friend who once again centered me and reminds me I'm not driving this bus, it's god.
The one thing I always forget in this journey is my friend Moby gives the best advise. He has for the past several years of my life, seriously I have no idea where he was this morning when we began emailing at 5am, I really need to remember to listen to him more often. He's always right, he's a little oracle. It's like I'm the bratty child who wants a Goose that lays golden eggs and Mo is Willie Wonka telling me to stop, then turn it over and stop thinking what I want is the way. Once again he was right. So kudos to my dear friend who once again centered me and reminds me I'm not driving this bus, it's god.
So with all of these revelations. Here is what's going on in my little life in a list format.
A. I'll be consulting part time for KO
B. Which means I have more summer time!! Who wants me to come and stay with them at their beach/lake house and teach them yoga??
C. I get to teach kids yoga in the garden during the daytime!
D. I get to do my apprenticeship without worrying about getting to a job
E. Marisol & I are teaching our vinyasa class on Weds nights at 6/15 Green Community Garden at 7pm
F. I'm going to teach yoga at a really cool digital media company this summer, finalizing this on Weds! Fun!! They have an outdoor space, how lovely.
G. I can't spend as much money as I have been lately, oof shopping must end!
H. I need to figure out what I am going to do with my life come September....I feel the urge to move out of NYC. Hawaii, Europe?? Who knows where yoga will lead me.
I. The man I thought I wanted in my life is with someone else now and that's ok. He wasn't the one for me and as I think about so many things, he didn't really deserve me. I guess all my visions don't come true, maybe it wasn't him that I saw? Who knows. Have I written about these visions before? I can't remember.
That's about all from 15th St & 6th Ave. Oh there is apparently a rapist in the neighborhood to please be cautious walking around by yourself ladies.
Back to resting for Lulu and I.
Marisol and I go to kids yoga teacher training beginning on Thursday! How awesome is that, I can't wait.
Peace
- Shanon
